...one day it will dawn on you...

Currently feeling: hungry

I really admire Erap, The guy’s guts has guts the size of his guts. And it’s not even just guts. It’s political genius in the Philippine setting.

            Who else can execute (and maintain over how long now? ) a perfect underdog persona in a country that adores underdogs? He’s the underdog even if he comes out on top.

            Who else can live in a mansion and still be the icon of the poor (let’s face it, in the Philippines, the ‘masses’ are the poor – in more ways than financially too)?

            Who else can go out to a party while in ‘jail’? Now he’s not unique in this aspect but it is quite a select few and he is the one who’s most televised when doing it.

            Who else can be found by a court of law as guilty of a crime against an entire country, be pardoned by the same administration that sent him to jail in the first place, and still have the balls to call for the same administration to step down from office. That is street justice at a national political level. Power by just being him.

            I’d call him a god but that isn’t necessarily true. No one’s going to crucify him.

To carry the yoke that fate has placed upon your shoulders is an act of faith. Faith in the justice governing the facets of the yoke. Faith in the truth that the burden is yours.

            There, suffering the weight is a step towards being what you aught to be. Like the boxer who endure that endless training. Like the artist that rehearses again and again. There, suffering is facing is facing the truth that all things have a cost in the world. There, suffering is acknowledging justice as it demands the price.

            But what if the yoke was someone else’s? Either taken by you or forced upon you? Can you carry it and say “justice is done”? Will you toil on and claim knowing the truth?

            Anything is possible, I guess.

 

I feel like lying.

So some senator/ (former?) military officer tried to instigate a junta, again... talking about it being non-violent (B.S...); saying it was spontaneous (B.S...); lies... I was supposed to go out and buy gifts for Christmas and I so couldn't. Who would go out with money on hand with a threat (though looking back it wasn't much of a threat) of a junta, right? Anyway I don't know him and whoever he's with in his cute little show - that guy with a wig was hilarious though. All I know is he failed to put into account one of the most important logistical consideration in organizing a movement of the type he was aspiring for: the weather. There was a looming rain. It might have had but I don't know for sure, I didn't go out. I wasn't able to go buy gifts for the people in my nice list. Trivial as it might seem, the weather or the rain was (and I think will persistently will be) the last straw the breaks the camel's back. And by 'camel's back' I mean the masses or the masses’ ability to do anything in a gross over generalization of course. but my point is think about it, if it rained in any household of lesser means I’d say there's a fifty-fifty chance of the people in that household to go out of the rain, spend for transpo, get into traffic or walk, and 'risk their lives'. It may be just my bias but I’m sure when it rains, transportation costs and hassle exponentially increase. I would think they'd rather help out in fixing holes (if any) on the roof, or something. And who would want to miss of all it on TV? Again, that guy with the wig... classic. So there I wasn't able to buy Christmas gifts coz of the rain and the group with the guy with a wig. I'm expecting busy weeks before Christmas, I’ll be too busy to go buy stuff... and to think I had that day off just for that purpose. Thank you guy with a wig and company.

I feel like lying some more.

Back on the subject of the weather and it’s adverse effects on the people's ability to participate in democracy. Going back, maybe nobody really cared about the guy with the wig and company wanted to say or do. But assuming somehow they do, even just a little bit. Why were they not there? Or why were their number seemed negligeable that I saw no shot of supporters on TV. And I was watching (who wasn't? it was live original TV! ... or maybe not that original but still cool to watch). I humbly propose that the one to blame was the weather. They just couldn't. Common sense dictates that whenever it rains traffic situations are bad - the supporters were stuck in traffic. It could be that the weather made them sick and since they were grouping together, the sickness spread - on second thought no this is just sick thinking. Forget it.

there was this one techie/gadget show i watched that featured the "ultimate gadget". that caught my attention. it turns out that the ultimate gadget was a video player system that incorporated all the current data storage technology (at the time), high end television models, and the concept of record+play+pause+fforward+rewind. i wanted that. i knew then that of all the things that i ever wanted, THAT was first on the list. the obvious fact is that i couldn't afford it - then and now. BUT now looking back, I NOW HAVE IT, in a way. bit by bit I have acquired the components of the ultimate gadget without actually planning to do so. seemingly arbitrary decisions to spend on a PC, an internet connection, and other computer peripherals have culminated into that which I coveted so much. well, not yet. i still need a new house for it to fit the dream.

speaking of incomplete stuff, the only incomplete word i know is the word "freedom". from all instances that i have heard or read the word "freedom" used to describe one's aspiration or state of being the meaning was vague. if ever an explanation was provided, it didn't really make sense in terms that it didn't fit well to how the word was used and the situation wherein it was used. this has been the case except when it used as "freedom from", then it was clear. And then there were questions still but the questions act as developments on the idea itself - not attempts to clear what "freedom" meant.

Currently feeling: sleepy

The following are, in no particular order, the top 100 facts about Enri. =D

1. Enri is partially ambidextrous, capable with both hands but each hand has an exclusive set of activities where it specializes.

2. The IQ test Enri last took resulted to a final score of 150. No one believes it, not even Enri.

3. Enri, like any normal man, day dreams of ruling the world sometimes. But his includes an army of Transformers.

4. Enri thinks in terms of pictures. The voice in his head speaks primarily in English and frequently consults with the stomach in difficult items.

5. Enri's room has poetic order in it. To the outside observer it would seem like a messy room, to Enri, each is placed in its proper place in the universe - where he left it.

6. Advertisements, in Enri's mind, are categorized into two types: thoes targeted to his demographic group and thoes that are not. Anything that does not catch his attentions is placed in the latter. Everything that is placed in the former is considered only for entertainment purposes.

7. Enri has no mushy side that he would admit.

8. Enri once knew Latin, it died.

9. Enri has a perfectionist heart, a practical mind, and dictatorial tummy.

10. Enri knows how to make poetry and was trained in it during HS. Whether he's any good is a different issue.

11. Enri loves zombie movies.

12. Enri was gobbling up a quarter-pounder during the first few minutes of Saving Private Ryan.

13. Enri rarely gets sick enough to inhibit him from performing moderate to complex tasks, but he takes sick leaves anyway.

14. Enri has no sense of direction, though he is capable of figuring it out once he has at least twelve reference points.

15. The first video game finished by Enri was Famicom's Bomberman. It took a pad of grade 4 paper, two pens, and a lot of patience to record the passwords. You may ask him what the ending was.

16. Enri assigns to each he knows a finite amount of patience, it is a very large amount but he never adds more.

17. Enri is afraid of rats and large crowds. A large mob of rats will make him run like a little girl.

18. For peace of mind, Enri likes to look at white fluffy clouds. That or eat a bar of chocolate.

19. Enri once ate 5 kilos worth of atis [sugar apple] and was still hungry for more. He was 5 then.

20. Enri has poor spelling skils.

21. Enri was the first to use the term 'pare' to refer to girls, but some stupid commercial used the same idea so now nobody believes him and it has lost its former effect.

22. Enri does not like to drink alcoholic beverages. He'd rather drink dark coloured sugar-water.

23. When in a bus or a train or on a bench, Enri ONLY gives his seat to the elderly, disabled or pregnant. He is easily tempted to give it to hot chicks too, but does his very best not to.

24. Enri hates long flights.

25. Enri loves watching fireworks shows and is very critical on whether they're any good.

26. Enri's favorite movie is Groundhog Day. If only there were zombies in it, then it would have been his ALL-TIME-FAVORITE!

27. Enri has a collection of expensive books and toys that no one ever sees.

28. Enri once sold his soul to the devil on Monday in order to win the lotto come Sunday. The devil refunded by Tuesday, sighting damaged goods as reason. Enri has never won the lotto since.

29. Occasionally, Enri experiences the compulsion to spend - and spend big time. The lucky individual that is with him need only ask to benefit from this phenomenon, luckily for Enri there is no external sign when this occurs.

30. Enri's favorite ice cream flavor is double dutch.

31. Enri has, at latest count, eight life threatening experiences. Seven of which occurred while riding public transport.

32. While in second grade during class, a high magnitude earthquake occurred. Enri, remembering what he has learned from Sesame Street proceeded to run towards the open field. The teacher, upon seeing this called for him to come back. And Enri, obedient boy as he was then, promptly ran back to his seat (inside the shaking building...). A couple of minutes later the earthquake stopped.

33. Enri hardly did homework at home then and has no real intention of working from home either now.

34. Enri seems like a very good listener, as he gives full attention when he gives his attention. The truth is he is exerting extra effort due to his left ear's partially damaged hearing.

35. Enri does not give to beggars. You shouldn't too.

36. Enri does not use credit cards, though he has and has been offered some plenty of times. He prefers to pay in cold cash.

37. Enri knows the meaning of 'life'. He reads a dictionary to help him sleep.

38. Enri's prayers are always answered, mostly 'No'.

39. Enri wants to grow his hair long, so he can sit at a bus and let his hair flail about while the bus speeds away, he wants to see how the ladies like it to have hair flail about in their faces.

40. Enri eats fast and in large helpings, he wants it no other way.

41. Generally, Enri does not like spicy foods and shy away from them as much as possible but he LOVES buffalo wings! (mildly spicy, off course)

42. When choosing video games Enri looks for the third person perspective, RPG elements, and violence.

43. When told that violence in media and video games made people capable of violence, Enri thought, "I won the NBA championship three times on the PSOne, why the hell ain't I being scouted for the PBA???".

44. Enri has a sick sense of humor, sick, really sick...

45. Enri believes that no matter how skilled you are, you CAN'T beat someone who's getting lucky. That is unless you wait for the lucky streak to end.

46. When watching the news, Enri makes it a habit to categorize each news bit as either bullshit or not bullshit. The news has been stinking lately.

47. After graduating, when Enri was looking for a job, he had a pre-rehearsed dramatic story on how he was blessed to have studied from HS to college almost for free. This story gets any mommy HR personnel by the heart, it never failed. Enri's real problem was the physical exam.

48. Enri has quite a few regrets in his life, but he can't remember any of them.

49. Enri hates traffic, it ruins his morning every time he goes to work.

50. Enri has stopped aging since his 16th birthday, he has gained weight though.

51. Contrary to popular belief, Enri does not have a crush. He has a list of crushes. An ever updated exclusive list with the ranking completely according to his whims.

52. Once a man asked Enri what is the sound of one hand clapping, Enri replied, "I don't know. Don't care." Then *SLAP!!*, enlightenment came to that man.

53. Enri sleeps half of the time.

54. Ancient prophecy state that the end of the world is heralded with Enri winning the lottery.

55. From outer space, you can't see Enri on earth.

56. When he was a kid, Enri once dreamed of going to the moon. He has now settled with going to the mall.

57. After traveling to the other side of the world, Enri concluded that there's no place like his room.

58. If Enri became president, he'll use taxpayer money to make a series of movies that will be shown for free to the public. He'll make a killing on his talent fee too.

59. Enri has a collection of over 8,000 mp3 songs on a wide spectrum of genres, but he prefers to listen to the radio.

60. Enri bought a PSP with the intention of playing on a table at home.

61. Enri has a dream that one day all politicians will just drop dead, preferably after screaming in agony.

62. Enri's favorite ninja turtle is Rocksteady.

63. Never hand a gun to Enri when he is angry with anyone, he might bash it to that person's face.

64. Enri does not believe in violence, he knows it.

65. Enri does not like paying taxes, then again who does?

66. When asked "What is love?", Enri replied, “Why are you asking me?? How would I know?"

67. An old hermit that came down from the mountains once offered Enri the secret to immortality. Enri quickly replied, "I'm not stupid."

68. Once, Enri saw the prettiest girl he ever saw in college reviewing for a test. Enri being the smart-ass had no intention on reviewing for their test, and instead took a short nap. This was his biggest mistake.

69. Enri once ate a chocolate bar right before a physics exam, he fell asleep during the exam for around 15 precious minutes.

70. Enri is a creature of habit.

71. Enri believes in Santa Clause, and intends to collect on a lot of overdue presents.

72. When Enri was a kid he was asked to taste a dish who's main ingredient was dog meat. It was very spicy. Enri now does not like spicy food.

73. Enri once had 1 strand of blonde hair. He plucked it, in the hopes that (like gray hair) more would grow. Enri has dark brown hair and a few well hidden gray hair.

74. Growing up disappointed Enri. He was really annoyed that people would give lots of presents every birthday and Christmas then just suddenly stop just because you got taller.

75. Enri once answered a call on his cell and there was no one answering on the other line. And in the somewhat silence, he could hear the sound of metal grinding and banging. He found it creepy.

76. Enri's nightmares usually have a homicidal stunt driver chick that has apparent romantic relations with him.

77. Enri once dreamed of being one of those immortals in the Highlander story. He was having a sword fight inside a warehouse, when his opponent's sword suddenly caught fire. This surprised Enri and the next image was a swirling view of the warehouse and some flashes of light.

78. Enri likes to watch horror movies at movie houses with the reputation of being 'haunted'. He thinks it's appropriate.

79. Enri occasionally stocks his desk with lots of chocolates and candy.

80. If Enri would have a daughter he'd like to name her Coleen. If a son, Archimedes.

81. Enri does not care about global warming. He believes that if it's hot, it's hot.

82. Enri's idea of an perfect date involves all-meat pizza, running shoes, and lots of water.

83. All Enri really wants out of woman are chocolates.

84. Few people know that Enri is a capable lock picker.

85. Enri believes that being lucky is the same as being blessed.

86. Enri does not like being nagged.

87. Enri's blogging days started on a Valentine's day.

88. Enri has no capacity for multi-tasking. He just wards it off as an unnecessary complication of tasks.

89. Enri's dream car has bullet proof windows, Kevlar upholstery, tear gas squirters, hidden mini bullhorn, and a PS3 entertainment system.

90. Enri works for the money. He has no idea why people are so hyped on the 'career' bandwagon.

91. Enri has excellent proficiency in many impractical skills. For example, he is experienced at threading storms.

92. Enri does not dance.

93. Enri does not sing.

94. Enri has great interest in knowing the future. Specifically, future winning lotto numbers.

95. Enri once had a cat that woke him up every morning. A rat killed it.

96. Enri is a meat eater.

97. Enri has no patience for very long lists.

98. Up to the writing of this list, Enri has never broken a bone in his body.

99. Enri has very little tolerance for pain. He just doesn't show it.

100. Enri's shoe size is 9 1/2.

Currently feeling: thankful

over the passed few months i have (and still will) partook of the online phenomenon known as MMORPGs. Specificaly, RF Extreme. A great big online war game from Korea. I play because it relaxes me. i find it an effective escape from the stress of real life. it slowly gnaws at ability to spell. and i honestly have not learned anything applicable to real life from it - but how cares? =p it's a game.

currently i play the character Galvatron. from my favorite childhood cartoon, Galvatron was the one that can transform into cannon. and that is what my game character's main ability is. stop on a spot, bring out the big gun, and fire until the target is down or the other way around. =D

recently my brother told me that i can sell my game account & character for what i assume was an exaggerated (but tempting... ) amount.

with the excemption of pretty girls and tasty feasts, i know of nothing that can detach me from such an addicting game other than a significant amount of money.

money, being what i now believe as and have learned from quite a few books is the main tool for achieving one's ends in our current society. i'm not saying it should be the only one, but i'm sure it's needed a lot of the time - like carpenters use hammers, and mechanics use grease. and like master craftsmen have many tools in their shed, money should be accompanied by a lot of things. needless to say, having personal goals that end only in gaining money of any amount is dangerous.

i remember the time i made an in-game trade for a very rare item. in game currency was useless as a bargaining solitary chip as any trade-competitor adding rare items in the trade has very significant advantages.

from the cartoon, Galvatron was this crazy leader who was powerful but was so full of himself that he ends up defeated. kinda like how i play. always head first with no tactics most of the time. hehehe for fun. for virtual glory!

Currently feeling: sleepy